I got the Whammy!

Bad news this morning folks.  I got the whammy on the scales :( 

I knew bad news was on its way, but fingers were crossed.  We have gone on three road trips that consisted of our favorite restaurants.  I mean three really big meals.  I felt miserably full after each one knowing that I had overeaten.  But all three restaurants are places we rarely get to go to.  I thought well it just happens once in awhile to eat at "this" place but ...that happened three times in one week. 

So I am up one pound and disappointed in myself.  I will have to buckle down this week to lose that pound and try to lose more.  My resolution this week is to eat out only one time.  And if I have to eat out more than that not to splurge like I did this week. 

I will try my best to keep the whammy off the scale Start over when I must...

Don't Be Afraid to Start Over

Don't be afraid to start over...that has been my motto this time around for losing weight.  I lost a lot of weight when I was younger and kept if off for six years.  Then, when my husband and I were having fertility issues and treatments, I gained all the weight back.  I now know that a lot of my weight issues centered around that disappointment.  I could lose 15 pounds easily but then I would lose interest and it would all come right back.

I was scared to get back into the right mindset to lose weight and start exercising.  I would say I wanted to lose weight but there was something holding me back: fear, emotions, the security blanket of weight, etc.

When I went to  a weight loss surgery workshop, everything clicked for me.  I realized that I deserved to give myself one more chance to lose weight on my own. I wasn't sure that I could do it on my own, but I owed it to myself to try.  A good friend went with me to the workshop and  provided me with support.  It sounded too good to be true.  Could a surgery solve my weight problem?  Maybe.  However, with the lapband one must still do a lot of the work.  That was my turning point about getting serious for the long haul.

Don't be afraid to start over.  No matter what your goal is in life. 

Trying to get it right - at the same time

My husband and I joke about both of our kids being "good" at the same time.  It seems like if one child is having a good week, then the other one is having behavior problems.  They really are good kids just a  bit ornery from time to time.  I suppose that is just the way it feels from time to time.  Our kids are the center of our world and we wouldn't have it any other way.

Now, I need to get my two issues right at the same time!  1) working out and 2) eating right.  One week I workout great but feel like I eat too many snacks or take too many trips to eat out.  Then I will get my eating on track and find excuses not to workout. 

This week's goal is to do both right! I have started the week off right with a four mile walk yesterday and today.  I have made good choices at meal time and haven't snacked any at all.   Sunday and Monday have gone my way, so nose to the grindstone for the rest of the week.

Grab a cup of joe

I'm afraid that coffee has become my new addiction.  It is what I turn to when I'm feeling emotional or sorry for myself.  Life has been very chaotic lately and I feel that I need to be "soothed" from time to time.  I don't have time for Calgon to take me away, so a cup of joe will have to do. 

In the evening after my workout and before the final chores have to be done, I enjoy a good cup of coffee.  I feel like it is a real treat and no it doesn't keep me awake.  I'm so tired at night that falling asleep is not an issue with or without coffee.   

Last week I bought a package of Dunkin' Donuts strawberry shortcake coffee.  Let me tell you that is smells amazing and tastes great.  It made me feel like I was having a decadent dessert.  Also, I am using Coffee House's skinny caramel macchiato in my regular coffee.  Be sure not to use the full creamers because they can have a lot of fat. 

Back in the saddle

This week I was back in the saddle when it came to making better food choices.  Several evenings consisted of a healthy dinner such as crock pot lemon/garlic chicken breasts.  In fact now that I think about it, I only ate out once this week. 

On the downside, I missed three nights of working out.  I usually take Tuesday nights off now due to a hectic evening schedule.  My daughter takes gymnastics and my son plays basketball on Tuesdays.  I want to watch the practices, and it is always late when we get home.  So I made a deal with myself not to get too upset about losing Tuesday as a workout night.  In exchange, I now workout on Sunday night.  Then I also missed Wednesday's workout due to a severe headache.  You know the kind of headache that requires turning out all the lights and trying to eliminate all noise?  Blinding headache.  On Friday night, I worked the basketball concession stand at the high school where I teach.  My community service club had the concession for one of our fundraisers, so  once again, no exercise

So add up better eating but less workout and I got a minus .6 on the scale.  I was really hoping to lose a pound this week after the small gain last week.  Guess I will just have to get back in the saddle and hope for better progress next week. 

Weekend Update

So bad news for my Saturday weigh in :(  I was up .2 and I blame snacking and my husband!  Ok, I will take responsibility for my actions.  However... my husband was off work last week, so we ate bigger meals.  He also has to eat a snack before bed so I often joined in with him.  But he is back to work this week so lighter dinners for me and no bedtime snack. 

I also had a couple of bad days for snacking at the end of the week.  I could blame that on PMS symptoms but again no one forced my hand.  It is so easy to come up with an excuse anytime. 

Well, I plan on being back on track this week!  However, "The best laid plans of mice and men often go awry." 

Confession time

I suppose for this blog to help me learn and reflect during my weight loss it must be accurate.  So...it is time for a confession.  Yikes.  Ok, I was doing so good during my snack attack time for a week and a day.  I was eating a fiber one 90 calorie bar and it was enough to be satisfied until dinner was ready.

However, I took a nose dive on Tuesday.  I was having a craving for sweets so I had a three musketeer bar, a child's size crunch cone from DQ, dinner, and then (oh yes it goes on) a tootsie pop.  I thought for sure the grazing was over but then my husband popped some popcorn and I had to eat some.  Well, not had to eat it but I did :( 

On Wednesday I did much better.  I had the 90 calorie bar and a handful of almonds.  I'm hopeful that I am back on the wagon. 

Today, has been very stressful so I haven't had a snack or dinner.  Stress keeps me from being able to eat so we will see later about today's result.